Im freaking out. What do I do? Im trying to decide how the rest of my fucking life will pan out, and Im freaking the fuck out. I didnt realize life would be this difficult.
Do I stay at Morehead and change my major? Or do I go home, and go to Galen School of Nursing?
This is the rest of my life Im dealing with. But how could I leave my life at Morehead? My sisters. My best friends. How am I supposed to leave that?
How am I supposed to change my major and life a full life, knowing I gave up?
I cant do this. Im breaking now. Im so glad I scheduled a visit with the campus therapist tomorrow.
I need you right now.
I need you to listen to me.
I need you to tell me everything is going to be okay.
I need you to distract me.
I need to hear words from you, because I believe them all.
I need you.
I was supposed to get my Acceptance/ Decline letter for Nursing school last week. I still dont have it yet. But somehow, Im okay with it. I have a small feeling down in the guy that I dont want to be accepted into the BSN program. If I did, I would be here for another 3 years. I've already been here two. No thank you. Then comes by back up plan. Applying in the fall for the ADNP program. No problems, right?
But heres where my brain gets confused. I've started second guessing what I want to do in life. What if I changed my mind? Can I change my mind?
You are supposed to love what your future job will be. And I dont. I like the idea, sound and money involved. But I dont know if its something I have the passion for.
I hate going to class on Tuesdays. Its my chem/anatomy days. I hate hate going to these classes! I should love it. Nope. Id rather stay in sociology class all week long. Its something that interest me, and Im good at it. Im not good at Anatomy and Chem.
So now I wait for the letter.
